The Daily Reflection for yesterday, February 16, was an important lesson in recovery. I’m not going to mess around, I’ll get straight to the line that caught my eye. I LOVE this stuff:
There came a time in my
program of recovery when the
third stanza of the Serenity
“The wisdom to
know the difference”
became indelibly imprinted in
my mind. From that time on, I
had to face the ever-present
knowledge that my every
action, word and thought was
within, or outside, the
principles of the program. I
could no longer hide behind
self-rationalization, nor behind
the insanity of my disease.
And that last sentence in the quote is most important in today’s victimhood, virtue signaling world: I don’t get the luxury of hiding behind my addiction any longer (or today’s “use/abuse disorder”) because, at the wonderful point I realize it’s my choices that affect whether or not I get the goods, I know better.
What that means, “inside or outside the principles of the program”, is that my thoughts, words and actions can be measured against what I know will bring me a happy, fulfilled life or what will make attaining that life impossible.
And if I still want to hold on, that desire won’t survive scrutiny; I can’t hide behind the insanity anymore because my sanity had been restored a couple of steps prior… if that’s what I’d been working for, of course.
There’s an up side and a down side, though. The up side is that we’re only reliant on our own honesty and ability to work a few steps and attend some meetings to maintain this unbelievable gift of freedom and happiness… all of which is free.
The down side is I don’t get to use excuses anymore.
As with any recovering addict or alcoholic, we’ll take that trade-off any day of the week and twice on Sunday.