Once we sober up and come out of the haze that once distorted our perception, we tend to want to dissect every little part of our life to figure out why – you know, because our thinking up till that point has been so spectacular.
Why do resentments mess with us so much? Why are we powerless over alcohol? Why must we only look at our part in a situation where someone else wronged us? Why must we find a Higher Power, something greater than ourselves, rather than go with self-reliance (because that obviously did so well for us right up until we sobered up)? Why this, why that, why the other?
Those who remain miserable (by choice, I might add), push the silly debates that don’t have simple answers. My resentment is different, I was really wronged and I don’t have a part in that, it’s all their fault and I have a right to be angry! So I’ll hang onto that resentment because it serves me so well, you know, being a victim and miserable and all… I don’t need a higher power because I’m so all-fired special that I can make self-will work for me! I don’t need the Fourth and Fifth Steps, I can skip those… This is what we call “the which came first, the chicken or the egg debate”.
Who cares which came first? They both taste great fried.
You can work whatever program you like, whatever you think will work. Just don’t come whining to me when you realize you’re a miserable shit… Of course you are! You skipped all of the important stuff that everyone else does to get better!
Let go of the great chicken and egg debate… It doesn’t matter which came first and never will.